[while, in my little world, I patched a plaster wall
[while, in my little world, I patched a plaster wall
and in my little world, I was waiting (just dying!)
and in my little world, I was waiting (just dying!)
to take offence at something
to take offence at something
this is all there is in my sad little world]
this is all there is in my sad little world]
in darkness a light shines
in darkness a light shines
on you and on me
on you and on me
I never gathered figs from a thorny branch,
I never gathered figs from a thorny branch,
I never picked a grapefruit off a bramble bush
I never picked a grapefruit off a bramble bush
and for the past five — almost six years now! —
and for the past five — almost six years now! —
you know you haven’t once looked at me
you know you haven’t once looked at me
with kindness in your eyes
with kindness in your eyes
you say Judas is a brother of mine?
you say Judas is a brother of mine?
but sister in our darkness a light shines
but sister in our darkness a light shines
and all I ever want to say for the rest of my life
and all I ever want to say for the rest of my life
is how that light is G-d,
is how that light is G-d,
and though I’ve been mistaken on this or that point,
and though I’ve been mistaken on this or that point,
and that light is nevertheless G-d.
and that light is nevertheless G-d.
every thing I thought I’d learned,
every thing I thought I’d learned,
ambition and illusion turned
ambition and illusion turned
to drawings on a loose leaf sheet
to drawings on a loose leaf sheet
of tarts and cakes I couldn’t eat
of tarts and cakes I couldn’t eat
what in her do I require?
what in her do I require?
the face of gratified desire
the face of gratified desire
what in me does she require?
what in me does she require?
the face of gratified desire
the face of gratified desire
brownish spiders,
brownish spiders,
brownish leaf
brownish leaf
confirms my deepest held belief.
confirms my deepest held belief.
no more spider,
no more spider,
no more leaf,
no more leaf,
no more me,
no more me,
no more belief.
no more belief.