I dream that I just got a new house, a new car
No more smokin’ dope, no more hangin’ at the bars
I can’t believe my eyes, I’m actually living well
Then I wake up and realize I’m just a prisoner in hell
I scream in terror, but nobody seems to hear me
They act like they scared of me, won’t even come near me
Is there something wrong wit’ me? Am I not even alive?
I already have died, see the demons in my eyes?
What’s my purpose? Why the fuck am I here?
Why don’t I have a fear? Will I live to see next year?
Is there a God? he must not care if so
Cuz if he did, he wouldn’t let muthafuckaz get smoked
But we all gotta die, so fuck it, don’t cry
I really can’t lie, that I ain’t scared to die
But I know I won’t fly, I know that I’m hellbound
But hell can’t be worse than this cuz I’m in hell now
Everyday is a struggle, just tryin’ to make it
Muthafuckaz always come to me sayin’ I’m fakin’
Or gettin’ arrested, it seems like it’s constant
I’m screamin’, «Fuck the world», I can’t deal with this nonsense
Who will take the time to bury me when I die?
I didn’t care for nobody, so nobody should cry
But why? I don’t know, I just can’t change
I try real hard, but my mind is deranged
I guess I’m just a psychopath, tryin’ to make a mill
But I’m not livin’, I’m a ghost sent from hell
I guess my heart’s froze, from all that cold blood
Or I don’t got one cuz I’m a muthafuckin’ thug
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Why? Why do we all gotta die? Why? Why do I have to get high
To get by, so that I can just lie, ‘Till the moment I die,
and then cry in the flames while I fry, I won’t get to fly
Cuz I can’t even try, you can see in my eyes, I just don’t know why
We all have to lie, we all have to die, but don’t cry
You know I ain’t scared to die